Year 2012

RANDom...

Ah Hahahahahaha... That's pretty much my reaction after reading a few of my previous blog post...
Blogging; It's for kids isn't it? Ain't Facebooking enuff? Why do ppl blog to tell the entire world about their life?

Then I realized that there are still ppl around me with updated blogs!! :P

But kinda think Mine's more about trashing... Maybe I should change my Blog Title to "Complains of my life" Instead... heeeeee.....

Like What I mentioned in my FB page I completed reading this book...
Thin book I suppose, finished reading it like in a day... Just couldn't put it down...
An Ex patient wrote it... I guess for me its more like re-living the Clinical Days... Feels so real, so close to heart... This, I guess is the closest I can get...

Many asked, don't you miss bedside?
My truthful answer;
Yes.... But... like most things in life, there's always a but...
I'm not prepared to give up the hours, at this point, Jae needs my routine day offs and no night shifts...
And so yes, I'm pretty much stuck where I am...

Do I dread what I'm doing now?
Don't get the wrong idea...
I like what I'm doing; just not the "battles" I need to fight...
I guess there're "battles" everywhere...
At the bedside I fight to keep my patients alive... And when they get survive my shift, gets better and downgrades to non-critical level, that feeling is irreplaceable...
Happy victory moments comes by more often back then....

Here, I have accidental stepping on ppl's toes, umpteen mind breaking, hair pulling occasions of figuring out what ppl wants, and how to move things to loose sleep for....
Not to mention convincing myself if what we're driving will actually work...

So I was told, "you're not a typical Nurse" but am I not?
8 long years, I worked, tot and behaved a Nurse, My brains have since been wired as a nurse... Doing this, I tell you is not easy.... There were moments where I finally see light then I sit down and tot; WHA PIANGZZZ... took so long to see light... toopid nurse wired brains....

If I do get a chance... (not to mention guts too), I wanna ask him... Prof, after all these years, how on earth are you still so so so so so so passionate, in the things you believe? Have you not once got dishearten? What keeps your faith going so strong??

In this one other book I'm reading, it was mentioned that if you "act as if" you believed, "act as if" long enuff, that believe becomes real, a culture.

Maybe.....