Year 2012

RANDom...

Ah Hahahahahaha... That's pretty much my reaction after reading a few of my previous blog post...
Blogging; It's for kids isn't it? Ain't Facebooking enuff? Why do ppl blog to tell the entire world about their life?

Then I realized that there are still ppl around me with updated blogs!! :P

But kinda think Mine's more about trashing... Maybe I should change my Blog Title to "Complains of my life" Instead... heeeeee.....

Like What I mentioned in my FB page I completed reading this book...
Thin book I suppose, finished reading it like in a day... Just couldn't put it down...
An Ex patient wrote it... I guess for me its more like re-living the Clinical Days... Feels so real, so close to heart... This, I guess is the closest I can get...

Many asked, don't you miss bedside?
My truthful answer;
Yes.... But... like most things in life, there's always a but...
I'm not prepared to give up the hours, at this point, Jae needs my routine day offs and no night shifts...
And so yes, I'm pretty much stuck where I am...

Do I dread what I'm doing now?
Don't get the wrong idea...
I like what I'm doing; just not the "battles" I need to fight...
I guess there're "battles" everywhere...
At the bedside I fight to keep my patients alive... And when they get survive my shift, gets better and downgrades to non-critical level, that feeling is irreplaceable...
Happy victory moments comes by more often back then....

Here, I have accidental stepping on ppl's toes, umpteen mind breaking, hair pulling occasions of figuring out what ppl wants, and how to move things to loose sleep for....
Not to mention convincing myself if what we're driving will actually work...

So I was told, "you're not a typical Nurse" but am I not?
8 long years, I worked, tot and behaved a Nurse, My brains have since been wired as a nurse... Doing this, I tell you is not easy.... There were moments where I finally see light then I sit down and tot; WHA PIANGZZZ... took so long to see light... toopid nurse wired brains....

If I do get a chance... (not to mention guts too), I wanna ask him... Prof, after all these years, how on earth are you still so so so so so so passionate, in the things you believe? Have you not once got dishearten? What keeps your faith going so strong??

In this one other book I'm reading, it was mentioned that if you "act as if" you believed, "act as if" long enuff, that believe becomes real, a culture.

Maybe.....

Jan babies...

So a year passed by just like that, and its back to the cycle of celebrating birthdays for the Jan Babies... honestly speaking, one thing I dun like about blogging is the up loading pics part... SO yes... Get the full album via my facebook account... kekekekeeee.....

She's Upset, cos no one wants to take Pic with her... kekekekee.....
Haizzz.... Just 2 more days till the end of leave.... It's been a good week! :P

Haizzz... Time to decide... Am I crazy enuff to do 3 modules next semester, and prob get horrible Grades? Or should I take my time and Grad only a year later.... It's sad to know that I'm down with only these 2 choices...

Enjoying my pseudo-carefree leave days... Trying hard to convince myself that I need to start working on my last assignment and prepping for my exams....

On a lighter note, I had dinner with my working pals.... we Talked so much and forgot all about taking pics! :P Oh well, at least just one with Our fav Registrar in the ward...

Kinda sad that my little Jae doesn't look like me... well maybe just a little?


But I guess some things he's like me.... kekeke... for example ermmm.... The LOVE for CHICKEN!! hehe... Like my mother too... We all can't live without CHicken! :P

Ok so I'm on leave, finished my 2nd last assignment for the trimester.... And Now I woke up feeling kinda lost.... today do what leh?
Hmmmm.... Massage appointment at 4pm... What should I eat for lunch?

Think I must agree, the more one sleep, the more one feels tired... sigh...

ahhhh.... on leave, how nice....

But tired...

I realised these days, Cancan not up to threats! ps, if U wan me to do something, anything.... Just ask, dun threaten... Stress I can take, but not threats!! Hello, I mean, we're no longer kids... Threats doesn't work... At ALL!

I so need to start working on my assignments... No mood... no "wind" forsee I will die very uglily... heheheheeee.....

Oh YEah!! Cancan Leong is officially On leave!!!! You dun know how glad I am...
No plans to go anywhere, but the tot of no dialysis, no IABP and no sick patients for an entire week! is just too cool!!!!!!!
Dun take this wrong, I love doing dialysis... just back to back dialysis for 2 consecutive nights... DRAINING...!

Tired, I'm seriously tired... Need a good break.... going crazy soon...

GOnna be the next Dialysis trainer, Ma says its a good thing, think so too, but that would mean, MORE "washing"!!!!
Think I might as well go look for a job at one of the dialysis centres! Mdm Freusinus, Ms Prisma, and MR AK 96's gonna be CAncan's good friends from now on.... (I love U all, just dun give me lots of problems!!)

SO looking forward for my dinner dates!!!!!
Dear friends, can we throw in KTV too?? :P