Ha! something to be happy about, my last round of perm night and I'm only doing the usual 3 nights!!! Yeh!!!... this round of night shift is going to end soon!!!

Hmmm.... but there's another thing to be worried about... Turning back my biological clock!!
I get hungry @ 11pm, can't sleep at night and can sleep tru till 2pm in the afternoon... Die lar, how to do normal shift hours again????!!!!

Like what my dear friend says, old liao lar... Takes a longer time to recover....

Sent baby Jae to school today... "Proud mother" cos he didnt cry... kekeke so happy!!!

POst night.. counting down... 3 more nights to go before my rest days... Hai... I think I'm not a perm night person, I wonder how some ppl can do perm nights for like ages... My night went well, no admissons, and my pt's a "touch me only when I say so uncle" so yah... all I really did was to monitor him and chart his parameters... Well at least he asked to be sponged @0630hrs, good timing, was able to finish my work just in time...

Doing some pre reading last few nights, well, if I'm paying that much for the school fees, I better be prepared and not need to retake any modules... Piangz... The more I read, the more I scared... Hai... dun know what I'm getting myself into, hopefully when the lessons starts proper, I won't be too lost... Psychologist, they really used lots of chim chim words...

Hazel turned 21! Had to leave her party early last night cos I had to report for work... How nice if I could stay, catch up and just talk cock with my cuzens... They all grow up liao lor... How time flies... My sister and hazel in uni, one doing Os, one still waiting to go U, and another doing nursing too! Went to NYP yesterday afternoon to pass her something, was waiting for her outside the lect hall, I was just sitting there, minding my own bus', drinking my iced lemon tea... And when the students came out of the lect hall, I had so many stares!!! Cow I look so weird meh?? Anyways, I noticed, these year 1 nursing students looked kinda old lor... kekeke... alot older then I expected, I think hor some even older then me lor.... wha hahahhaaa....

COme to think of it, I also not that young liao lar... Hitting 30 soon... Been in my line for like 6 bloody years!!! And where am I now? Still a lowly paid Staff Nurse... Hai. sometimes i just wonder... Wonder, wonder, wonder.... What am I doing ar? what i did wrong ar? dun know lar... Guess I'm in one of those cross roads ba....

Why does one goes back to doing something one thinks that one should not be doing?
Why does one thinks about something one knows one should not be thinking about?

If you are the owner of ur mind, body and soul, shouldn't you be in control?

Being in control can really be draining...
Accepting the fact and dealing with the concequences of losing control can leave one devastated.

Mind over matter; the power of believing in oneself....
Does it really exsist?

SOmetimes I wonder, why should life be so complicated?

Why should we be made to make a choice?
Why should we be in situations that leaves us without one?

The id, the ego and the superego...
Why should one allow such grading?
Why should one be made to do the right thing?

Happiness...
1. the quality or state of being happy.
2. good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy.
One can define it, but can one really enjoy it?

HAha.. ok ok.. I get it... Sick and tired of my machines liao... WHat to do? I doing perm nights mar... I not like SOme ppl can update blog as and when during their working hours wor.... "kekekekeke"

SO what is happening to me?? Nothing much I guess... Getting bored with life... Feeling aimless, tired all the time, Just feeling Low, feeling low most of the time...

I'm tired of going to work, tired of seeing fake ppl, in short, no motivation, very, very, extremely SIANZ...

Was feeling so for quite some time le ba... 3 months after I left school, see, ppl always says that once U get back from advanced Dip, u'll get restless, true to a certian extend ba... Feeling a little stuck, like not moving on like that... SO what did crazy Can Can decide to do???.......

Another degree... keke, Will be starting classes in Nov... AT least there's something to look foreward to... See, the Book's from NYP, cos the place I'm gonna attend lessons at, doesn't have a Library!!! Piangz.. need to pay NYP $53.30 a year to borrow books lor...

OK I looked tru a few books and hmmm.. seriously I dun know what i'm getting myself into... I'll cross the bridge when I reach it ba....

On a lighter note, I've just turned 26!!!! Officially more then 1/4 century old!!!! keke happy birthday to me!!

ROUND 1- Birtday bash with my advanced Dip Poly mates!

From left to right: Karen, Yani, Me & Jasmine...

Yani, showing off her sexy back... keke.... She and me Hot Mamas of our cohort K, dun play play... WHa hahhaha....

A glimpse of what we'll end up doing if the healthcare industry went bust!!! wha hahahaha....

Getting (acting) drunk even before the dinner starts... hehehe...

Food!!! oh my sisters joined in the fun... keke kelly said: "got free food, I sure come!" :P

Cam whoring!

And there was Cake... from Awfully chocolate.. trust me it's darn GOOD!!!!!!.......

The "HUNKS" hahaha... thats what they think lar....

ROUND 2- Birthday bash with my Sec school gang!!!! Kenny Rogers!!!!.... SUsan Still knows me the best... ooooo..... chicken.... fantastic chicken....

See its so good, nothing left on the plates...!!!!!

Round 2 of round 2... Eskimo.... this little thing here... must try.... beri beri gooddddd.......

And Whats best!! I've got lots of presents!!!! kekeke....

Ok I noe.. Show off... but this dun happen all the time OK!!!!! :O

Special note: ME got presents all the way from NZ!!!! Overwhelmed... Thanks Sand' smooch smooch.... :p

Alright.. How can I have a blog Update without Baby Jae right?.....

Lets just say he's becoming more and more like a Monster!!!! .... kekeke....

But then, he's still my little darling lar...

See told U He monster right?... checking out my bag... I think if he can he'll prob rip it!!!

Oh, did U know, I sent him to child care liao... Eager Beaver at Yishun Safra....

Taken on his 1st day of school.... kekeke my son grown up liao lor.... Boy do I feel OLD..... :P